Monday, April 23, 2007

A COMPLICATED MAZE!!

A COMPLICATED MAZE!! my heart full of dreams and visions,head full of thoughts and doubts..am a unsolved maze to many...

I lighten up the place with silly jokes and crappy talk that people enjoy but still feel sorry to be seen as a full charged and energetic person because i am not....hate to be seen as someone who i am not but still like to expose a few aspects of what i would have liked to be...

I strongly believe in the quote" don't wish for something too hard because you may never know ,it might happen someday and u really might not be happy"...i love dreaming about the most stupid ,unrealistic thing on earth even when i realize its nature..and brood over it later for trying so hard even when i knew it shall never happen..on the contrary ,if such a thing by luck( which basically never hits my side) ..happens i again brood realizing it is not what i wanted...

Acts in the way the heart asks me to and later blame it for mis happenings.i love and dream of a particular goal all through the life only to end up in a totally different place achieving something else which really did not bother to me much till that moment...but later start realizing that ...what i am achieving is all that i wanted all through my life..traditional at heart but have a modern outlook towards life...which is very contradictory ....

Gets excited when people say i have a particular quality to achieve something and later gets depressed when i analyze and understand that people do not really know the two sides of me and my capabilities...which is rotten at times....the only thing that keeps me and my life running is "MUSIC"...its the only thing i can decide and listen to in the shortest span of time...