Monday, April 23, 2007

A COMPLICATED MAZE!!

A COMPLICATED MAZE!! my heart full of dreams and visions,head full of thoughts and doubts..am a unsolved maze to many...

I lighten up the place with silly jokes and crappy talk that people enjoy but still feel sorry to be seen as a full charged and energetic person because i am not....hate to be seen as someone who i am not but still like to expose a few aspects of what i would have liked to be...

I strongly believe in the quote" don't wish for something too hard because you may never know ,it might happen someday and u really might not be happy"...i love dreaming about the most stupid ,unrealistic thing on earth even when i realize its nature..and brood over it later for trying so hard even when i knew it shall never happen..on the contrary ,if such a thing by luck( which basically never hits my side) ..happens i again brood realizing it is not what i wanted...

Acts in the way the heart asks me to and later blame it for mis happenings.i love and dream of a particular goal all through the life only to end up in a totally different place achieving something else which really did not bother to me much till that moment...but later start realizing that ...what i am achieving is all that i wanted all through my life..traditional at heart but have a modern outlook towards life...which is very contradictory ....

Gets excited when people say i have a particular quality to achieve something and later gets depressed when i analyze and understand that people do not really know the two sides of me and my capabilities...which is rotten at times....the only thing that keeps me and my life running is "MUSIC"...its the only thing i can decide and listen to in the shortest span of time...

7 comments:

Vidya Natarajan said...

" don't wish for something too hard because you may never know ,it might happen someday and u really might not be happy"-just the truth
great to see u blogging
and yeah typical teenager syndrome of wat to achieve and where to go....
and yeah music soothes one's soul
looking for more posts
cyA

Rakhesh Rao said...

welcome to blogging! music makes the world go around....roaruk.blogspot.com

Whizkid said...
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Whizkid said...

"traditional at heart but have a modern outlook towards life" which is wat most people tend to claim these days and it's more of a trend and no contradiction ther..And yeah, u do exhibit shades of pessimism in this post. If that be the real U, may be U have to change..One needs to feel gud about oneself by mind, body and soul and to achieve that contentment and sanguinity are a must..I once used to tell my buds.."What I am is wat I didnt want to b and wat I wanted to be is wat I am not"...And this is largely applicable to each homosapien u run into..Just that it s applicable in different phases and different forms of their lives...Blog more..

s()ms!e said...

true to the word..don't wish for something too hard because you may never know ,it might happen someday and u really might not be happy..; " i think getting to understand wat u r comes with maturity...
the blog proves u were going thru a confusion era of a teenager..a heartache mayb.."im guessing here"...hehe anywayz..its alwayz better to understand wat u r by urself than from others..and true,,music can b a solace in a battlefield..hmm..my guru says.."if something happens..then its good".."if something doesnt happen...then its very good"...i wish life were that simple..why dont u try to make it simple../ ?

Yours lovingly, Friend.... said...

hey dont think i'm repeating zany and sowmya said..but ya..its tur..dont dream bout something so much and be emotional towards something..out of personal experience it does become heart breaking wen u dont achieve it...but on the positive side it may just come true! am confusing..aint i! lol! wat i'm saying is only this - dream the wildest of dreams but dont be too hard on yorself..just take things as they come...be happy with wat u have and never lose an opportunity to climb onto the next step towards your aim..cos u may never know..it may just not knock at ur door step once again..buuuutttt..it may just ring the bell again! hahahaha..i think i'll just leave it there...wait wwait..one last think bujji..DREAM! lol! ;)

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